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This is the first time I've thought of the future, I've never been driven to ever do anything with my life. Maybe fall into writing. I'm really not that great at it. I hate not knowing what lies ahead for me, I just want something secure. I don't want to be my sister, end up with a job at a gas station and not go to college. I'm completely scared to death of life, of how mine will be if I don't get my act together. What if I have no spectacular future? I suppose I'm a bit of a whiner, but I can't help it.